to explain my earlier post

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'cause well...everyone was rather nice about me being a bitch and this is the least I can do.

I don't like this punishment. It's not that I don't think I did anything wrong, I knew I was drinking illegally when I chose to do so. But I don't like being confined to grounds.

I've only been here a little over a week and I've only been off campus twice, once to get a dress for the semiformal and then the semi-formal itself, both on the same day. But to have that freedom...I haven't had that in so long.

Before I came here, my mom basically locked me in the house. I had the entire house to myself most of the day and never any visitors. Occassionally she'd drive me to my dad's house where I could be locked in there. They weren't trying to be cruel or mean, they just didn't want me hurt. But it may as well have been a prison sentence to solitary with daytime TV.

This feels the same way and I hate it. Yeah, it's only a week and no, I don't have plans to go anywhere, but that isn't the point really. I wouldn't mind some other form of punishment...but this just hurts.

so yeah. not asking it to be changed either, just trying to explain why I'm prolly not going to the be the most pleasant in the next week or so.

fuck-tastic.

Comments

[x-kitten.livejournal.com]

Well yes, I believe that...

[x-crowdofone.livejournal.com]

So is that a yes? :) C'mon, if you feed them snacks the worst you'll have to worry about is some horse drool when they try to frisk you for more, and I wouldn't ask you if I didn't think you'd like it. Trust me?

[x-kitten.livejournal.com]

I do trust you... it's the horse I don't trust. But yes, I'll try it.

[x-crowdofone.livejournal.com]

Yay! Later this week, how about, since I dunno if I'm up to keeping an eye on both you and Clarice yet.

Oh! And if you want, if it'd make you feel more comfortable right at first, I bet we could probably share a horse, neither of us is very heavy and they're strong, and that would probably make it harder to fall off. And it'd be easier to show you how to use the reins and things like that.

. . . Although, y'know, come to think of it, we probably shouldn't do that for very long, because with the horse moving, and stuff, that would get . . . embarrassing. Quickly. Um. But we can give it a try if you want.

[x-foliate.livejournal.com]

Hate to interrupt, but I was never quite sure how that one worked either. In the movies I mean. Do let me know if you figure it out, huh?

[x-kitten.livejournal.com]

Heh. We'll see. And yeah, later this week ought to be fine.